m a r t i n a

lately I've been hard to reach
i've been too long on my own
everybody has a private world
where they can be alone
are you calling me
are you trying to get through
are you reaching out for me
I'm reaching out for you


I'm just so fucking depressed, I just can't seem to get out this slump
if I could just get over this hump,
but I need something to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, took my lumps, fell down and I got right back up
but I need that spark to get psyched back up,
in order for me to pick the mic back up
I don't know how or why or when, I ended up in this position I'm in
I'm startin' to feel distant again, so I decided just to pick this pen
up to try to make an attempt to vent, but I just can't admit
or come to grips with the fact that I may be done with rap,
I need a new outlet
and I know some shits so hard to swallow,
but I just can't sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow, but I know one fact, I'll be one tough act to follow
one tough act to follow, I'll be one tough act to follow
here today, gone tomorrow, but you'd have to walk a thousand miles

In my shoes, just to see, what it's like to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes, just to see what it'd be like to
feel your pain, you feel mine, go inside each others minds
just to see, what we find, look at shit through each others eyes
but don't let them say you ain't beautiful
they can all get fucked, just stay true to you
don't let them say you ain't beautiful
they can all get fucked, just stay true to you


grym jävla låt. eminem - beautiful.
det blev ingen bio och jag har inte hängt här hela kvällen. var och tog en cigg med käraste alicia och hennes pojkvän. kom tillbaka för en stund sen och har suttit och kollat på alla ouppdaterade bloggar och lyssnat på låten.
jag fattar inte varför jag är så jävla fucked up i huvudet och med alla känslor. jag blir så trött på det här.
ge mig ett jävla rus, låt mig glömma alla jävla känslor för en kväll. låt mig vara bland folk, låt mig dansa, ge mig sommarnätter med älskade vänner. låt mig inte sitta här ensam. jag vet hur det slutar.

nej, ska sluta klaga.